Hard Week - May 4, 2015

We received a letter from Chelsea saying that she was having a really hard week.  Lots of insecurities and doubts.  So this weeks email to her was lots of words of encouragement, scriptures, and positive thoughts.  So her emails to us are as follows.  I did get to write back and forth to her a bit.  It was nice because she was able to get immediate responses to her concerns.  We ended on a positive note.  Although, I have to admit that I have worried about her all week.

CHELSEA - Thank you for that! I really needed it. I have to say that this week has been really hard, harder than last. We have been really busy, an extremely busy week.  We had exchanges this last week and I feel like I failed at it. Everyone that we were suppose to see cancelled and I still don't really know the area and the people as well. It was hard.  I Know that I'm suppose to be here, but I'm still having a hard time adjusting. I just want to talk to you guys and see you, because I miss you way too much. I have to tell you something - Brother Milt Hatt has a brother who is in one of my wards and he gives us candy every Sunday. Then he has a niece who is Less Active and we are teaching her kids. Brother Hatt told his brother that he needs to be really good to us, sisters and if he doesn't he's in big trouble. I just laughed. 

CHELSEA - Thank you daddy! I really needed that. I think the problem was that I wanted you to give me a priesthood blessing and with you not being here it's really hard.  I think, not being able to see you guys everyday is what is killing me inside. I don't know if I can last this long without seeing you or hearing your voice when I need to the most or when I'm having a hard time. I have to say that it is becoming more of a struggle to think about being here. I just want to see you guys and see the little girls. I miss Ciara so much and it's hard not to talk to her or you when I'm struggling. And being on this mission has made me realize how grateful I am to have a loving family that loves me and supports me on my decision.  I know that Heavenly Father is watching out for me and he knows my concerns.  It's just that he isn't answering my prayer when I need it the most and it's hard.  I love love you dad!

MOM - Look sweetheart.  We know it is difficult.  It's important that you learn to stand on your own two feet leaning on Heavenly Father.  He does answer every prayer.  It is in his time and in his way.  Listen for the answer - not for what you want to hear. Your example by being there is doing so much more for the family than you could do while you were here. Stop thinking of how hard it is and how much you miss us.  Every time you get a thought like that - dismiss it and think of something else.  Do not dwell on it.  That is what Satan wants you to do.  He wants you to dwell on us.  Concentrate on your investigators and what Heavenly Father wants you to do.  Satan wants you to come home.  Tell him NO!!  And then get to work. WE LOVE YOU!! 

CHELSEA - Okay I will. I try but it doesn't always work by telling him to get out of my head I like scream it. I'm just excited to see you on Sunday.

MOM - Okay.  We will plan on 4:00.   Chels - you pick yourself up and you say.....  This is enough!!  I am not going to be sad any more!  I know I can do this.  It is what I want to do!!  Then you get up and you get going.  Tell yourself over and over..... this is what I want!  This is what I want!!    Think of the person that you are becoming.  You are strong, beautiful, and awesome!!  YOU CAN DO THIS!!  You have to truly believe that you can.

CHELSEA- Okay yay! I'm excited. I will do that, I know it will help. Thank you mom for helping me.